Sunday 15 June 2014

What are westerners doing in Malaysia?

A: What are those westerners doing in Malaysia?
B: They are here to be traffic consultants.
A: Traffic consultants??!!!
B: Yeah. Westerners always say "traffic in Malaysia is terrible!!"
A: They just have yet to be in Indonesia and Thailand. 

LOLOLOL

Friday 27 September 2013

Friday again!!

It has been quite a while since I have talked to my buddy because I am a bit busy and most of it is because I am lazy.

My thoughts seems to be scattered all over the place tonight so I thought this would be a great moment to talk to my buddy since I don't feel like doing anything including watching hong kong drama series. It is abit wierd that I choose not to watch my drama series because that is my favourite past time hobby. Anyways, here I am talking to my invisible illusionary buddy. For me, it is definitely fine to talk to oneself but others do not think so. I might be the random one but I definitely think everyone needs some time off away from the crowd.

I am going to write about what happened this morning. It is kind of ridiculous but I bet a lot of us have such experience before. Let me start from what happened yesterday night. Out of curiousity, I upgraded my iphone 4s software to iOS 7 because everyone was giving positive review about it and my apps are not working well on the older version software. The problem is I was too tired that I can't be bothered to wait for the whole download process and I fell asleep straight away. Working life is exhausting when you have to study at the same time.

When I woke up, my phone shows 5.38pm. LOLOLOL... I was asking myself did I actually sleep for more than 12 hours? I basically missed the whole day by sleeping - I did not go to work, I did not call in sick, I went missing in action for Friday. HAHAHAHA. My second thought was to go to the clinic to ask for medical certificate so I can go on sick leave. Yes I know I am naughty and a terrible employee but what can I do? I can't turn back the clock to get to work on time and even if I go to work, it is already after working hours since bank finishes at 4.45pm on Friday.

Thank god I am still rationale that I look at my watch to confirm the time. It was 8.13am. Friday has yet to come to an end and I can still make it to work although I will be late for work. I can't be bothered to think about the consequences anymore so I got on the LRT and make my way to work as usual. I saw colleagues on the same LRT so I was quite relieved. I ran all the way to work from the LRT station and the business banking head was just standing beside my table dealing with his personal assistant. Opppsss... he caught me red handed.

Anyways, I hope I did not get into trouble for being late because last Tuesday, HR just reminded us to be punctual. I hope Apple don't come out with new software too frequently because I am not very impressed with what happened after I upgraded my phone. LOLOLOL...

Life has been challenging as well. Branch attachment was fun but going back to HQ is a pain in the ass. I am aware that when I am in the branches, I smile alot. I sincerely smile from the bottom of my heart, but when I am in HQ, I tend to put on my fake smile and get impatient with people. I hate it. People around you are no longer caring or willing to help anymore. You will be left there sitting for the whole day doing nothing. You will have to beg for work everyday.

To those who let us sat there reading manuals or did nothing: I can understand how busy you are but if you think you couldn't handle management trainees, just tell HR. Don't think your time is precious and we have to put up with all these nonsense. I know we are there for just a week or two, but at least let us do something. Why can't it be a win win situation, where you get us to help you and at the same time we learn something?

Anyways, all these thoughts should be kept here with my buddy because people told me not to be too demanding. I was scolded because they say I don't appreciate life without work and they like to do nothing but get paid. I realized that I could not fit in properly no matter how hard I tried. It makes me so depressed. OMG... depression kicking in again!! Damm!!

Another thing that makes my day so blue is that we have to wait for our person in charge to go out for lunch together. Guess how long we have to wait... 1 and 1/2 hours and no apologies at all. I have to say although your position is senior vice president and you hold a phd, you are busy and have to handle a lot of things, saying sorry doesn't take you more than 2 seconds. I was not impressed with his attitude at all. Of course, during lunch I did not say anything at all because I was not interested in whatever he is talking about because I have no respect to him anymore. Unhappy face during lunch
=(

After lunch, it is time to pay. Guess what, nobody from my group took the initiative to pay. I took out RM50 note and left it on the table. Other group members were sitting there looking at me and the person in charge. I guess they were expecting the person in charge to pay but for me I did not want his treat because he is such a lousy person. They are taking people from the senior management for granted. HAHAHA.... At last, the person in charge asked us to pass him the bill and he has to foot the bill of course. I handed him my RM50 note and he didn't want to take. I can sense that he did not volunteer to do that because he was damm slow in taking out his credit card and he looked at the bill for 2 seconds too. But there is also another possibility that he is just the slow type of person. After paying, all my group members said thank you with a big smile. LOLOLOLOL... I hate those fake smiles!!!

Life sucks!! Friday is bad for Priscilla as always.

I think I should change my blog to a place where I do my research on equities rather than all these negative thoughts and feelings!!

I hate Fridays!!












Friday 5 July 2013

Happy girl in Selayang

It's been a long time since I have talk to my buddy because I have been quite busy for this week and foresee myself to be as busy for the rest of the month.

I have been turning in very early because I have to wake up pretty early everyday. It is good isn't it? Healthy lifestyle which I have been always longing about. Life was good for this week. Although I have to travel to Selayang every morning to work, my colleagues are very nice people. I love this type of working environment and it is far very different from what I experienced in HQ. The boss is super nice, caring and encouraging. He assist my journey to work by fetching me from and dropping me off at the KL Sentral Terminal when possible. If he could not make it to send me there, he will ask around the office to ensure someone to drop me off the LRT station. I really appreciated his kindness and this is so much better than the HR in HQ. Life in Selayang is in heaven while life in HQ is in hell. I am not talking about the amount of workload but it is more about how we interact with each other. There is no backstabbing or talking behind people's back in Selayang. It is worth it for me to wake up very early to catch two buses to get there and adapt to the filthy environment.

Yes, Selayang is really dirty and smelly. That's why all my colleagues do not eat around that area. They will drive to somewhere else to have lunch because they believe the food around that area is dirty and can cause food poisoning. That is also the moment when everyone sits together to talk, chill and relax. I love the feeling of being part of the 'family' because they will never leave me in the office alone or let me have my lunch alone.

Although my colleagues are very busy people, they will take some time out to answer my silly questions and teach me the relevant work flow. Some even stop whatever they are doing and focus on teaching me things that I have to learn based on the to-do list. How can I not feel touch by the kindness and actions of my current colleagues? I remembered my first rotation where I was left there sitting and reading for the whole week. Nobody answered my questions or even take the initiative to talk to me. When I did not know how to do, they just tell me it is ok to do it wrong, rahter than teaching me the correct way. Later, when they do my appreciation, they just mark me as lousy, below expectations. I was really really angry about it. But thank god, they are out of my life now and hopefully forever out of my sight.

My colleagues are naughty too. They tried to match make me with one of the guy in the office. They hard sell the guy to me and warned everybody else not to bring me out to meet clients next week because I should follow the guy next week wherever he goes. OH MY GOD, funny colleagues, but they define themselves as caring colleagues that wish the best for the work mates.

I am counting my blessing and I hope this month shall never end. I love to be at work now!! =)
I am back to be a happy girl despite what has happened last week which basically ruined my whole working life.    

Monday 24 June 2013

PEOPLE

It is either tomorrow or the day after tomorrow that I am going to have a presentation on my job rotation experiences so far in the bank. I really do not know what to talk about for the topic because I do not think I have enough content to talk about for 5 minutes. I have yet learned a lot of things at work and it has been very depressing  although everyone kept telling me it is ok to not learn or do anything.

My group insisted of finding a word with an alphabet starting with our name. My name is Priscilla, so I have to find a word starting with 'P'. I was asking my friend what should be the word, and she told me perfect. I thought it was a good idea because I have to show optimism in me. But the truth is, I can't get over it myself. OMG, although I was told to put on my poker face at work, I will never want to say my experience there is perfect. It would be so fake to me but I'm sure someone out there are willing to use the word 'perfect'. So, I came out with the word PEOPLE.

In our daily life, we have to deal a lot with people, it is something that is unavoidable. For example, we have to deal with the cashier when we pay for our groceries, we have to order our food by telling the waitress what we would like to have for lunch, we have to work together in teams at work and so forth.  

Mouth is the most notorious weapon ever invented by God and no men on earth could ever invent anything else that can be as poisonous or hurtful as what words of mouth can do. I know it is impossible to stop people from talking behind your back because whatever you do, they will have something to comment about it. For example, today, I chose to listen to whatever they are discussing and absorb what is the right way to share ideas so I decided not talking much. Guess what, people commented on me again. They said they have never expected me to be so quiet. Others commented that since I am so quiet, I should be the one that should be doing the presentation. Actually, I was giving out my ideas too in the first place, but nobody was listening. They were very focused on the pretty Y lady. Hence, I might just shut up and listen to Y lady. Y lady is well known for her detailed work so everyone just want to hear from her. Also, I have bad reputation in the bank therefore nobody wants to even be close to me. Fair enough, by talking to me, they are having reputational risk.
I just do not understand why people like to comment and criticize on others when our focus is to get the discussion done. Seriously, why? WHY? WHY? WHY?

God gave us a pair of ears and ONLY one mouth, so why not listen what others have to say rather than always talking? I am not against people who talk, you can talk all your heart out but please only talk about yourself. You have no rights to talk about others because you have not gone through what they have and you basically do not know the whole picture of whatever you are telling. Then, it is time for story twisting and selective telling.

Rumors and gossips can completely destroy a person in the eyes of others. I can't believe a simple sentence like 'I have no faith in the HR' will be spread out to all 29 management trainees and also escalated to the senior management. Everyone was talking about it behind my back and I did not know until now. Hurray, thanks everyone who talked about me because each of you guys spent at least your precious one minute talking about me rather than doing something important!! I still have no faith in the HR. They are good in selective hearing; they only want to hear from their 'pet dogs' and others, they will treat you like stray dogs. Although both are dogs, you get different treatments and penalties.

For example, you can be late for every training and not get whacked in the face but you can get insulted in front of 29 other management trainees because you express your opinions. This is where the unfair games come in. I admit I am not beautiful because I do not have 23 inch waist or big round eyes like a Barbie, but I do not think I deserve to be treated this way. I understand human are sight-oriented animals but humans have to be rational.

TO BE CONTINUE

*I believe if I present based on what I have blogged, I will get more bullet holes at my back. I don't think my back is big enough for extra bullet. So, I will present the way they want it to be - full of lies and pretend I am happy with what they have arranged for us. Poker face mode on!!


Saturday 22 June 2013

Dogs is everyone's best friend!!




I miss my dog!! Maybe I should adopt a dog so unhappiness will stay away from me!! 

Disclaimer: Found those photos on facebook.

Wednesday 19 June 2013

Shadow Act

Found this on youtube. It is such an amazing performance. I praise and respect them for their talent. Such a creative performance!!
 
 

Friday 14 June 2013

Let's call it a week!! =)

Don't know why I am so exhausted this week. My back ached carrying the heavy laptop bag and handbag. Is this a signal that I might fall sick over the weekend? Or maybe because I have really learned something this week after one and a half month of zero input. I feel contended. This week, at least I have something to write on my learning journal and it feels wonderful to review what I have learned. On the other hand, I must have caused a lot of trouble to my person in charge. I kept asking questions because I was so confused during the starting of the week. I never really understand foreign exchange rates in university and even now I would not guarantee that I understand everything because I still calculate the dates wrongly =(

Doing research and forecasting the future trend of 7 exchange rates will be my jobs for the weekends. Can anyone please help me do my assignments? I have no idea how those currencies move and what is happening in those countries in depth until I can be confident to forecast their future movements. Tedious jobs but I think I will enjoy it!!

 G7 currencies:



DXY (U.S. Dollar Index)
EUR/USD
USD/JPY
GBP/USD
USD/CHF
AUD/USD
USD/CAD
NZD/USD

Will be my weekend companion. Maybe I should start doing it tomorrow because my mind is completely blank now. I can't even concentrate on what the security guard was trying to tell me just now when I was about to enter the apartment. I told him to slow down because I could not catch a word out from his mouth. OMG... I must be really tired today, mentally exhausted.

I did not have quality sleep for the week. Often I will wake up in the middle of the night and my heart beats so fast that I don't understand why it is happening. Is there something wrong with me? Am I too fat that I am going to have heart attack soon? Oh nooo... Maybe it is time for me to go on diet. But... I love food!! I like to eat!! I am a round round tubby.