PEOPLE

It is either tomorrow or the day after tomorrow that I am going to have a presentation on my job rotation experiences so far in the bank. I really do not know what to talk about for the topic because I do not think I have enough content to talk about for 5 minutes. I have yet learned a lot of things at work and it has been very depressing  although everyone kept telling me it is ok to not learn or do anything.

My group insisted of finding a word with an alphabet starting with our name. My name is Priscilla, so I have to find a word starting with 'P'. I was asking my friend what should be the word, and she told me perfect. I thought it was a good idea because I have to show optimism in me. But the truth is, I can't get over it myself. OMG, although I was told to put on my poker face at work, I will never want to say my experience there is perfect. It would be so fake to me but I'm sure someone out there are willing to use the word 'perfect'. So, I came out with the word PEOPLE.

In our daily life, we have to deal a lot with people, it is something that is unavoidable. For example, we have to deal with the cashier when we pay for our groceries, we have to order our food by telling the waitress what we would like to have for lunch, we have to work together in teams at work and so forth.  

Mouth is the most notorious weapon ever invented by God and no men on earth could ever invent anything else that can be as poisonous or hurtful as what words of mouth can do. I know it is impossible to stop people from talking behind your back because whatever you do, they will have something to comment about it. For example, today, I chose to listen to whatever they are discussing and absorb what is the right way to share ideas so I decided not talking much. Guess what, people commented on me again. They said they have never expected me to be so quiet. Others commented that since I am so quiet, I should be the one that should be doing the presentation. Actually, I was giving out my ideas too in the first place, but nobody was listening. They were very focused on the pretty Y lady. Hence, I might just shut up and listen to Y lady. Y lady is well known for her detailed work so everyone just want to hear from her. Also, I have bad reputation in the bank therefore nobody wants to even be close to me. Fair enough, by talking to me, they are having reputational risk.
I just do not understand why people like to comment and criticize on others when our focus is to get the discussion done. Seriously, why? WHY? WHY? WHY?

God gave us a pair of ears and ONLY one mouth, so why not listen what others have to say rather than always talking? I am not against people who talk, you can talk all your heart out but please only talk about yourself. You have no rights to talk about others because you have not gone through what they have and you basically do not know the whole picture of whatever you are telling. Then, it is time for story twisting and selective telling.

Rumors and gossips can completely destroy a person in the eyes of others. I can't believe a simple sentence like 'I have no faith in the HR' will be spread out to all 29 management trainees and also escalated to the senior management. Everyone was talking about it behind my back and I did not know until now. Hurray, thanks everyone who talked about me because each of you guys spent at least your precious one minute talking about me rather than doing something important!! I still have no faith in the HR. They are good in selective hearing; they only want to hear from their 'pet dogs' and others, they will treat you like stray dogs. Although both are dogs, you get different treatments and penalties.

For example, you can be late for every training and not get whacked in the face but you can get insulted in front of 29 other management trainees because you express your opinions. This is where the unfair games come in. I admit I am not beautiful because I do not have 23 inch waist or big round eyes like a Barbie, but I do not think I deserve to be treated this way. I understand human are sight-oriented animals but humans have to be rational.

TO BE CONTINUE

*I believe if I present based on what I have blogged, I will get more bullet holes at my back. I don't think my back is big enough for extra bullet. So, I will present the way they want it to be - full of lies and pretend I am happy with what they have arranged for us. Poker face mode on!!

Dogs is everyone's best friend!!

I miss my dog!! Maybe I should adopt a dog so unhappiness will stay away from me!! 

Disclaimer: Found those photos on facebook.

Let's call it a week!! =)

Don't know why I am so exhausted this week. My back ached carrying the heavy laptop bag and handbag. Is this a signal that I might fall sick over the weekend? Or maybe because I have really learned something this week after one and a half month of zero input. I feel contended. This week, at least I have something to write on my learning journal and it feels wonderful to review what I have learned. On the other hand, I must have caused a lot of trouble to my person in charge. I kept asking questions because I was so confused during the starting of the week. I never really understand foreign exchange rates in university and even now I would not guarantee that I understand everything because I still calculate the dates wrongly =(

Doing research and forecasting the future trend of 7 exchange rates will be my jobs for the weekends. Can anyone please help me do my assignments? I have no idea how those currencies move and what is happening in those countries in depth until I can be confident to forecast their future movements. Tedious jobs but I think I will enjoy it!!

 G7 currencies:

DXY (U.S. Dollar Index)

EUR/USD

USD/JPY

GBP/USD

USD/CHF

AUD/USD

USD/CAD

NZD/USD

Will be my weekend companion. Maybe I should start doing it tomorrow because my mind is completely blank now. I can't even concentrate on what the security guard was trying to tell me just now when I was about to enter the apartment. I told him to slow down because I could not catch a word out from his mouth. OMG... I must be really tired today, mentally exhausted.

I did not have quality sleep for the week. Often I will wake up in the middle of the night and my heart beats so fast that I don't understand why it is happening. Is there something wrong with me? Am I too fat that I am going to have heart attack soon? Oh nooo... Maybe it is time for me to go on diet. But... I love food!! I like to eat!! I am a round round tubby.

 

First day of June

Yesterday I had a presentation with the department I am attached with and people obviously like to ask me questions.

I was asked whether there is any products targeted to Gen-Y in the market that is up to my satisfaction. I told them I have yet found any for the time being and in future I might be able to find one. Then comes the work related question - What if you are a product manager, how do you juggle between company's profit and the benefit of customers?

HAHAHA... Guess what I answered.

It is none of the choices given. Tata ... Answer: I will reconsider my future, i.e., I will think whether I suit being a product manager. Actually reality is cruel. The moment you work the company, you have to put the company's benefit first. Oh wells, I added, if the company pays me well, I will put the company on top of consumer's benefits. This is so not like my statement. After that, they say everyone starts by getting paid less. Aiyo... who does not know that? I told them the truth, if I feel the connection between the company and me, I will do my best for the company. Connection matters, which for me right now is missing.

Actually the answer can be I will put the priority of customers first. Banking is a customer service business. If the customers are happy, they will recommend the bank to others. Although the bank is getting less profit per customer, it is gaining the market share.

This answer sounds so official, which I don't think will ever come out of my mouth. =P

For this week, I have been to KLCC for three times. I don't want to go there anymore. Goodness... No money to shop and most importantly no mood to shop. Thanks to all the baddies around me @.@
I will grow strong and God bless everyone!!

Happy Gawai!!

Sleepless night

Another sleepless night for Priscilla Lim. I can barely sleep properly yesterday as well. My eyes are wide open since 3am but I only went to bed at 2am. I guess there are too much thoughts that came across my mind that require digestion. I do not like to have insomnia because now I am having headache. Oh nooo...

About Thursday, I spent my whole day refining the proposal. I googled the proper way to write a proposal but I was very very careful when I was using the internet. Guess what, I had exceeded the internet quota again today. Anyways, I was quite proud that I came out with a proposal for the first time all by my own. =) Well done, Priscilla!!

I felt the people in the department were too noisy especially for a working space. They were talking non-sense very frequently. I thought maybe if they could possibly improve their efficiency, they can go home early and get more sleep!! But one of my friend told me some superiors actually equate hardworking to working till late hours. For me, that is definitely not the case. I do it fast and correct, thus I can go home early. Work is always endless so no matter how late you stay, you can never clean up your job lists. All you can do is to do work up to date. Another reason for me to fail while I am climbing the corporate ladder because I never like to stay late in the office given I checked my job lists. Sigh

Yesterday, when I was about to leave the office, one of my colleague asked me to wait another 5 minutes because she wants to give me feedback on the work I have done. But it is already 5.50pm, I am done with work and ready to go!! Actually I couldn't blame her because she was kind enough to give me constructive feedback while she was so busy with her work the whole day. So, we chat a bit about my proposal and where to improve.

Obviously I overestimated the figures and she decided to give me actual figures from the daily report. Finally... but why don't you just give it to me when I asked for it in the first place and now I have to reconstruct everything again. Sigh, this is what I meant inefficiency!!

Somehow I can sense that my work is still below the standard and expectation of the head of division. But I was seriously satisfied with my proposal because it was my first proposal and I started from scratch without anyone's help and guidance. I could have done better if I were given more time and guidance.

Today, I spent half of the day reconstructing my revenue generation. But I think it was incorrect as well because the head of division was not interested in looking into it at all. He gave my some of his personal views on how I could gain more from this management trainee program. Another person who asked me to be more open minded and explore more of everything. He seems to be the first person in the company to be able to make me feel shaky upon my point of view. I like him. He doesn't talk crap, he is straight to the point but he disclaims everything he says. HAHAHAHAHA. He asked me what department am I interested in and obviously my standard answer was research and risk. I told him I wouldn't want anything that involves sales and he asked whether I have addressed my concerns to the HR. Seems like he feels that I've already found my direction and I will fight for it no matter what, that's why he kept on repeating how important it is for me to keep an open mind. Cool guy I would say and I would like to talk to him again if I get the chance.

After that, another division head invited me over to share my experiences to be in that department. I was extremely blur when I went into the meeting room with 8 people. So, I told him what I did and my thoughts towards changes that can be made for current products. We had quite a debate about the changes that I propose. He thinks I am very analytical but I told him too bad I never get into research. He told me, if you have an aim, just go for it, which means it is not necessary for me to be open minded. Very contradictory right?

I am still weighing which one is more important, being open minded or get on going for my current aim?

One very good suggestion that my friend gave me was be open minded for the time being and grab any possible opportunities that will lead me to my aim!! Very complicated idea but very true!!

Actually I want to thank two very important people in my life at the moment. They are my neighbours, one level above me. They listen to my complaints every time and give me suggestions on how I can improve my current situation!! I don't think I could have survive through this transition period without their comfort, love and care!! Thanks, peeps =)

Glommy Thursday

Today work was BORING, BORING, BORING. I did my 3Ss again.

I asked the department head that what should I do for the day, and all he asked me to do was to sit there and read their campaigns. I really did not like the department head. Everyday when I asked for more things to do, all he asked me to do is to read their campaigns. You think you have a lot of campaigns for me to read izit? I can read everything in one afternoon. Today is already Wednesday. All you ask me to do is to read read read. If you don't want someone to rotate in your division, just tell the HR for goodness sake. I was so jealous when I looked at other members in my group that their assigned division head explained different types of products for the whole day, brought them out to talk to the clients and asked them to do something that is really challenging. But for me, all I do is to sit there and blend among them, to become the UN-noticable.

The most frustrating bit for the day was when I wanted to leave at 5.50pm, my so called temporary colleague came to speak to me. She was telling me my proposal was not detailed enough. OMG, since when she asked me to do a proposal. All she say was "give me three marketing strategy for the three flagged products". I do not regard that as asking me to write a proposal.

The funny thing is that she told me I will not be given any extra information or figures for me to do the proposal. I have to assume things. Cool!! I will assume why rich people will come to us, what is so great about us, how much is the revenue generated from my idea!! Tomorrow onwards,
I will be staying in my own world, assuming things. In addition, I am supposed to think of something that the head will never think of to help them generate more money. Hmm... why not I take over the role of the head and get paid more since I can think of things that he can't think of? It does not make any sense. Just throw things to someone that is only at work for the 3rd day makes me feel annoyed. I do understand that a lot of the companies do do things this way. No guidance whatsoever. If we, fresh graduate can grab hold of the things old, experienced staffs are doing in just an instance, then we will not be called fresh graduate!!

By the way, yesterday I read this book called 'the secret'. It is about how amazing power of thoughts can be. If you wish to be a millionaire, start to dream now. Every morning, tell yourself, you are a millionaire, you have more than enough to spend!! Decorate your surroundings with slogans that supports your thoughts to be a millionaire and you will become one eventually. I do not know whether this is true, but I will start to change my thoughts from now onwards, BE EXTRA POSITIVE!! Come on challenges!! I'm going to bring you down.

*There was a landslide at Jalan Ampang. I pray for those that had their cars damaged!! Hopefully, tomorrow the road is back to public usage so my lovely colleagues will not be stuck in traffic again!! =)

Sigh, life!!

Do you want to know what I am up to?

To my surprise, we have internet quota at work. For me, 100mb per day is ridiculously little for work purpose. This morning, I finished using my quota within 1 hour. So, for the rest of the day, I was sitting there doing work which does not require any internet, ie, work offline. My colleagues even emailed the IT department to ask them to increase my internet quota. Seriously, why do they even have internet restriction for workers? It is already the 21st century and everyone is feeding on the information from the internet. Without internet, you will be slow in receiving information and even less of creativity since browsing the net usually provides us with a lot of different types of thoughts and ideas from all over the country. At work, we are restricted from using youtube, Facebook and all other social networking websites. So, what is the point of imposing internet quotas?

Without internet, I really do not know how am I going to survive at work. Over time, there seems to be less and less reasons for me to retain in the company.

Life sucks recently. UBAH failed!! Current government remains strong standing!! GST is going to be imposed soon enough!! I expect prices of necessity goods to increase triple fold!! I did not get my research job rotation!! I am working in a department that everyday I go to work, I hope it is time to go home!! Nobody have time to teach me stuffs, so I sit alone all the time!!

I have a new slogan in life -> Sit and Stare, Stare and Stone!! That is basically what I am doing every day at work. I hate my life. Can I please utilise my short life span properly? I cannot afford to waste my time anymore. I am already 25 years old and I have yet started to build up my career. I shall find something to do tomorrow at work.

I know I am in a transition period. But I am more of having depression because I become so sensitive and down lately. I cried so much when I did not get the job rotation in research. I was crying so hard that I woke up crying in the middle of the night. I had swollen eyes when I woke up and luckily it was Saturday the next day. I felt so much insulted and humiliated for failing to get into research or even equity capital market. I, at least had all the basic qualifications required and I admit I am not too stupid in terms of learning stuffs, but they prefer someone who was from an unknown university, not even from finance or economics degree and with poor English O.O

In short, I am still working with my current company because of two reasons:
i) I can't apply for annual leaves if I have an interview
ii) I want job experience of at least a year so others will not question my loyalty (so, it looks good on my resume)

Until I find a department that accommodates my interest and it is fast moving, I know I will not be a happy worker although there are a lot of things that can make someone happy. This does not apply to me.

30 April 2013 - Pre-Labour Day

Training has been very interesting lately. Today's talk was about how to communicate effectively and negotiate successfully. Although it was very informative, we were way way over the 'pang kang' time. For the first time, I left work at around 6.30pm and as I was walking to the LRT station, one of the department head stopped and asked us to join him for a drink. Opppsss... actually I did not notice the department head but one of the girls that was walking with me smiled at him. Obviously people like me very often failed in climbing the corporate ladder. I live in my own little world, walk at the pace of a cheetah, looking down on the floor as I walk... etc, in short, I am IGNORANT!!

Actually, I realised that to be successful in the corporate world, you do not have to be too smart. Qualifications are barely of significance too. You can be a graduate from the 三九流 local university and still be in the same management trainee program, hold important positions as other famous foreign universities graduates. Even if your english is poor (for example, not able to spell explain and unable to speak fluent English), you can still be accepted in a management trainee program (this is from what I observe). It all comes down to whether YOU CAN B.S. and BOOTLICK YOUR SUPERIOR!!

Sometimes, I feel unfair for myself. All the hard work and efforts I put in to even pass the exams when I was in the university (obviously being in a foreign university, we could not copy assignments, no tips from our seniors, higher expectations from the lecturers, higher passing marks etc and for local universities...), those expensive tuition fees and heaps more, are pretty much flushed down the toilets. Just giving an example, as a finance undergraduate student studying overseas, I am totally aware that most of the finance models we are studying now contains errors. Too bad, a local university MASTERS student did not even know or heard about it. They thought all the models such as the CAPM models were perfect. Oh wells, at least when they introduce themselves, they will tell others, 'I HAVE COMPLETED MY MASTERS' and I can only tell them, 'I ONLY HAVE A BACHELORS DEGREE'. About Bachelors, a masters student does not even know how to answer when their superior asked them "what's your bachelors?" >.<

I know if I keep comparing, definitely I will be upset and forever stuck in an angry tornado. All I can do now is strike for the best!! Hurray... tomorrow is Labour Day, it is a public holiday in Malaysia and I am moving house too!! I am getting my own room!! Life is exciting!!

About my attachments, I received bad news today. I will be transferring to a branch that is quite far from my place. The excuse was - the branch which was near to my current place is newly established. They will feel uncomfortable and intimidated if I am around. Hmmm... maybe I shouldn't even be in other branches too because they will feel the same as well. What a ridiculous excuse!! EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON!! The reason was the traffic there is high and I get more chance to talk to uncles and aunties if I am attached there. YAY!! Aunties and uncles, watch out for me!! I will be there soon!! Come and find me if you need any help but you guys must tolerate with my lousy Cantonese and Chinese!! =)

Long updates

Exams coming soon.... pimples growing on my face, laundry piling up in my room, papers full of scribbles and lecture notes laying around in every corner of my room, students mushrooming in the library, time is running out.

Somehow, this semester, I will have to pass my exams because I want to GRADUATE. Oh my goodness, after 4 years of tiring university life, this morning I received my conditional graduation letter. FINALLY FINALLY... I'm happy, how about you?

So, let's just leave the happy part... let's go to the upset and cranky part of the day.

After for such a long time, I finally went to the staff meeting for once. It's really not my problem because I usually have classes when they have staff meeting. Ok, so what made me so upset is the fact that permanent staffs at my working place claimed that casual workers are lazy bugs.According to them, casual workers are just uni student that don't give a shit to their work and get a higher pay as compared to those permanent ones. I seriously think that is such a heavy accuse to other casual staffs at my workplace. From my observation, casual staffs are those that are working really hard to either keep the kids happy and do the cleaning up. I wouldn't deny that one or two casuals are pretty 'chill' but they don't represent the whole population of casuals.

On the other hand, I can only think one permanent who is leaving today is hardworking, others are just !@#$$% (self explanatory). Most of the time I will see and hear them in the office or in the kitchen chit chatting or bitching about others. They talk about how they break up and make up with their boyfriend, what for dinner plans... etc. When you are good friends to the directors, this does not mean you have more rights to complain and not do work. Damm shit...

Besides, the permanents claimed that they are the ones that are always doing the cleaning up. Do you know why? This is because casuals are always the ones who are always asked to go outside to play with kids or handle those disabled kids. How is it possible when we are outside playing with kids and at the same time do cleaning? Why not let's make it this way, casuals do all the work and permanents just sit there and get paid? How does it sound? Maybe this would make them complain less to the directors and whinging in the staff meeting. Sorry, I am just being sarcastic =)

The last thing that I am cranky about is the directors are very angry with staff's dressings. HAHAHA... seriously, I know this is really NONE OF MY BUSINESS, because I would say I dress most appropriately at work. Always in my jumper, jeans and sneakers. How can this go wrong when you have to work with kids? But the problem is the director's friends who work there are the ones that never dress properly. Can you imagine if you have a kid and you send your kid to some sort of childcare but the childcare workers are wearing short fluffy skirts like Sailormoon and some transparent tops which bras can be see throughly? Dad would be happy but I'm not very sure about mum. HAHAHAHAHA. That's what they wear at work. =)
Will I be expecting bikinis during summer? I don't mind entertaining myself with some hot ladies working with me. We'll wait and see.

At the meantime, I really think my work place's politic has gone more complicated than I thought it would be. Most staffs are friends of friends. Where do I stand?

Enough of procrastination. Back to work.

*Hopefully next time when I attend staff meeting, I wouldn't hear those harsh accusation and impolite wording. My director is a very nice person =)

Another movie day and get touched from Brother Bear

OMG... I shed my tears today at work because I watched Brother Bear.

Sourced from Wikipedia (quite a good summary of the story):

The film is set in a post-ice age North America, where the local tribesmen believe all creatures are created through the Spirits, who are said to appear in the form of an aurora. Three brothers, Kenai (voiced by Joaquin Phoenix), Denahi (voiced by Jason Raize) and Sitka (voiced by D.B. Sweeney), return to their tribe in order for Kenai to receive his sacred totem, its meaning being what he must achieve to call himself a man. Unlike Sitka, who gained the eagle of guidance, and Denahi who gained the wolf of wisdom, Kenai receives the bear of love, much to his objections, stating that bears are thieves. His point is made a fact when a bear steals some salmon. Kenai and his brothers pursue the bear, but a fight follows on a glacier, Sitka giving his life to save his brothers, although the bear survives. Vengeful, Kenai heads out to avenge Sitka. He chases the bear up onto a mountain and kills it. The Spirits, represented by Sitka's spirit in the form of a bald eagle transforms Kenai into a bear after the dead bear's body disappears. Denahi arrives, mistaking Kenai for dead, and his bear form is responsible for it, vows to avenge Kenai.

Kenai falls down some river rapids, survives, and is healed by Tanana (voiced by Joan Copeland), the shaman of Kenai's tribe. She does not speak the bear language, but advises him to return to the mountain to find Sitka and be turned back to normal, but only when he corrects what he had done; she quickly disappears without an explanation. Kenai quickly discovers the wildlife can talk, meeting two brother mooses, Rutt and Tuke (voiced by Rick Moranis and Dave Thomas). He gets caught in a trap, but is freed by a chatty bear cub named Koda (voiced by Jeremy Suarez). The two bears make a deal, Kenai will go with Koda to a nearby salmon run and then the cub will lead Kenai to the mountain. As the two eventually form a sibling-like bond, Koda reveals that his mother is missing. The two are hunted by Denahi who fails multiple times to kill Kenai, still unaware that he is his brother. Rutt and Tuke run into the bears multiple times, the group hitching a ride on a herd of mammoths to quicken the pace to the salmon run, but the moose are left behind when the bears move on. Kenai and Koda escape Denahi again, and reach the salmon run, where a large number of bears live as a family, including the leader Tug (voiced by Michael Clarke Duncan), a Grizzly Bear. Kenai becomes very much at home and at content with the other bears. During a discussion among the bears, Koda tells a story about his mother fighting human hunters, making Kenai realize that the bear he killed was Koda's mother.

Kenai's contentment is about to be shattered when Koda tells the story of his separation from his mother

Guilty and horrified, Kenai runs away but Koda soon finds him. Kenai reveals the truth to Koda, who runs away grief-stricken. An apologetic Kenai leaves to reach the mountain. Rutt and Tuke, having fallen out, reform their brotherhood in front of Koda, prompting him to go after Kenai. Denahi confronts Kenai on the mountain, but their fight is intervened by Koda who steals Denahi's hunting pike. Kenai goes to Koda's aid out of love, prompting Sitka to appear and turn him back into a human, much to Denahi and Koda's surprise. However, Kenai asks Sitka to transform him back into a bear so he can stay with Koda. Sitka complies, and Koda is reunited briefly with the spirit of his mother, before she and Sitka return to the Spirits. In the end, Kenai lives with the rest of the bears and gains his title as a man, through being a bear.

Kenai

Koda (very bubbly and talkative little bear)

The song is also quite nice: On my way by Phil Collins
The original sound track on the DVD sounds better than this one, where i found it on youtube

After we watched Brother Bear, we went on watching Finding Nemo, then An Ant's Life. I didn't really like Finding Nemo although the children love it. =) 

What else can I complain about work when you get to have your childhood back once in a while?

Disclaimer: Images may be subjected to copyright.They do not belong to me. I downloaded from google image. 

Answer like no answer

What kind of answer is this? I only ask whether we need to include explanation of benefits for profit seeking firms but this is what the lecturer reply!!

'This would depend on how you structure your essay. I cannot provide an answer as, at this point, I do not know how you have structured or framed your arguments in your essay. The important issue here is to make your case.You need to give careful consideration to the core issues in your essay and ensure that you communicate clearly and effectively. Give careful attention to how you construct your arguments. Making such decisions, whether to include or exclude something, is part of the process of constructing and writing your essay.'

Yes is yes, no is no... Sienz!!

A day full of cartoons

Have you ever watch three cartoons in a day? HAHAHA... I watched 3 cartoons today at work, which are some bee show, scooby doo and some a bucket full of dinasour show. I couldn't remember all the cartoon names because I have to remember more than 20 kid's name. Too much things to handle in a day. Oh wells, my full day shift ended finally, from 9am-6pm. Phew, thankfully there wasn't any big accidents happened or else I won't know what to do as my manager was away and the room leader went on a holiday to Singapore.

I just realize that I missed quite a bit of my childhood. I am watching all the cartoons which I have never watched before. Quite cool isn't it? Gaining back my childhood when I am in University.

Do you know a kid just told me I am skinny? It made me float on cloud nine... I wonder if I am skinny, who else is fat?

So many assignments due, which one should I start first? That's why I am here talking to my little buddy!!

Hello...

I know I know, long time I never update my blog. I have abandoned my little buddy for more than one month. Tsk tsk... Oh wells, please blame the school of accounting, those lecturers and tutors. They expect heaps from us. They think we have 10 brains and 12 hands because assignments flow like the Rajang River, non stop... !@##$%$%^

Oh wells, guess what, I am having my two weeks teaching break!! It is called teaching break for a reason because students are expected to hand in assignments during the break. The break is specially designed for the teaching staff. At least I enjoyed part of it as I am also a teaching staff. hahaha...

Should I cheer for my two weeks break? Half of my break is almost gone... but I can't even feel the holiday atmosphere. Sniff sniff... where is my holiday? My friends around me are all busy with their assessments too... so... it is a fair game. HAHAHA...

Somehow I think  this semester everyone is working so hard. I can't recall in my previous 4 years when I visited the computer lab in Copland around 6pm, the computer lab is still packed with students. Besides, my friend told me, it was packed even at around 11pm. OMG, 11pm.... I am wondering what are those people doing there while they are supposed to be at home at 11pm.

Then, on Monday, which is the first day of holiday, I went to the library to get my assignment done because I have no choice as it is due that day at 5pm, the library was also full of people. I think most of those that were stucked in the library because they are in the same position as I do. Or is it just me being to subjective, they just love STUDYING?? =)

Another reason I can't enjoy my holiday is because I have to work everyday. We had some kind of school care assessment on Tuesday and Wednesday. Alamak, we are observed while we work. There were two old ladies holding their ipad and flip-over files standing there, looking at us and kept on recording. Opppsss... that was scary for me. Are they really writing something or just drawing cartoons on the files? hahah... just joking. Our manager even asked us out to celebrate for the end of assessment. Can you imagine how big deal it is for the center and the manager? Wahahaha... I think we passed the assessment =) Hurray... at least I am still employed casually =)

Assessments oh assessments... bye oh bye...

Joke of the day:
Why did tomatoes blush?
Because tomatoes saw salad dressing =)

Hotpot in Gunghalin

On Tuesday night, we went out for hot pot in Gunghalin. It was buffet style hotpot. It is also some kind of farewell dinner for Claud and Kai because they are leaving on Thursday. 

I think it is worth it to pay around $25 for the food we had. I was so hungry that night because I woke up late and had a sandwich only. I was the last eating survivor that night. =) Ok, I admit I eat heaps. Call me eating monster!! 

I did not take any photos of food because it is just the usual ingredients used in hotpot. Nothing special. But, I shall never forget the group photo. I must force everyone to take the group photo. LOL

1,2,3 snap!!

Anyone wants to have hotpot marathon with me anytime soon? I am looking for eating monster. If you don't eat heaps, forget about it. No fun eating with those who has bird fed tummy. LOL

ANU Graduation Ceremony (11/7/2012 - 13/7/2012)

This is one of the very important and long awaiting moment for most of the university students - GRADUATION. I am so happy on behalf of my friends who graduated this semester and wish them all the best in future. I am looking forward to mine which is hopefully at the end of the year. *Fingers Crossed*

Day 1 - !@#$%^ (Sorry, I don't know which college =P)

Day 2 - College of Business and Economics

Did you notice anyone missing? HAHA. It is Claudyne's partner, Mr Kai. He left before I arrived. The graduation ceremony was supposed to end at 4pm, but it ended at 3.15pm. I guess there were not a lot of people graduating mid year, that's why it ended so soon. Never mind, I'll crop his face and add to this photo.

That's Mr Chua. I never know he is that tall until I looked at this photo. As you can see from the photo, it was raining on that day. Oh god, please don't rain when I graduate.

所谓：一山还有一山高！！Yang is taller than Chua. Muahahaha...

Kah Ho with his BATIK shirt. I completely forgot about the word "BATIK" until Nandha reminded me of it.

They are Singaporeans!! I'm not, that's why I took the photo for them =P

Hui Qing attended the graduation ceremony because her boyfriend won some kind of award for Economics. Smart hey. Another reason she was in Canberra is to say good bye to us because she is leaving for good, back to Malaysia by the end of this month. See ya my dearie..

Good reason to sit down and have dinner together, good companion, but not so good food. 

Day 3 - College of Science and College of Arts 

Finally, Jack can leave ANU and head to a university in Netherlands (Sorry, i can't remember the name of the university). LOL. His ambition is to go to Oxford. Once I thought of that too, but now, I am too old for big dreams. Maybe i'll change my mind in the future, but for now, I just want to start my career after my undergraduate life. My parents would have to declare bankruptcy if I continue to study.

Nandha, the panda.

One big group photo although I don't really know most of the people. I know them but in my definition, "KNOW" means someone I can share things with, not just "hi-bye" friends. So, basically, the number of people I know now in Canberra can be counted using my fingers and toes, especially after the graduation ceremony. Sigh, What a big failure =(

Karen, her surname is also LIM. We were in the same batch coming to ANU, but now, she graduated, me... hopeless.  

Can you see the long path behind us? That's the university avenue that I have to walk through everyday to go to my school. Heaps of walking. I just realized I've never take photos along the university avenue. One day, I'll do that. 

Finally, Tiffany graduated too!! Due to her leaving, it means that I am losing my Hancock buddy. I remember her carrying her snack bag and kept eating in the library, sushi, apples, chocolates, chips, biscuits... etc. Also, she always buy things from the vending machine. Most of the time, she will buy chips from the vending machine outside Hancock when we leave the library. Lots of memory with her!! <3

Fire Drill BILA?

I thought fire drill was last night, but obviously it was not. Isn't it always on Wednesday during the Orientation Week? Please don't let it be next week when uni starts.

When? When? When? I want to get prepared because I don't want to stand in the cold shivering early in the morning. Rawrrrr....

Bad Friday

Today I am a bad person. I went for consultation for my "hate most" course - corporate strategy and guess what happened?

So, I waited more than 40 minutes for my turn, then there was this group of people just cut the queue. Actually, they made appointment with the tutor by emailing him. But, I did not know about that. I screamed "EXCUSE ME, I WAS HERE FIRST!!" Damm angry that time. If you made an appointment before hand, please inform me, don't just barge in the room. IDIOTS... Actually, if you tell me before hand, I won't be that annoyed. What to add on is, they are noisy INDIANS students. Can they just keep quiet while waiting? In this case, we can wait patiently by doing our own stuffs, like reading our own books. Can't INDIANS students stop talking every time I see them? I met them in the computer lab before I went for consultation. They kept talking BULL SHIT in the computer lab too. ZZZzzZZZzzz....Inconsiderate people. Actually in that group, I also don't like another girl, which is Chinese. LOL. Don't know why, 就是看不顺眼！！I think it is because she is also a noisy person. You know when you start to hate noisy environment, you are AGEING. haha... undeniable, I am.

Haha... After they heard me shouting (Eh, wait, this is my first time I shouted at people in front of tutors or lecturers or even in the school. I was so so so frustrated, I guess), they left the room and mumbled saying that they made an appointment before hand. I didn't care about them, so I went into the room. Obviously, it is so significant that I was mad that time. The tutor freaked out, trying to explain the situation where they had made an appointment. Of course, I responded by saying "What is the point of having consultation when I still have to send an email to see you? It does not make any sense!!"

My tutor tried to calm me down obviously, but failed lar.... He asked me what I did not understand and wanted to ask. I told him I could go home and google search because it is the other group's right to have their time to consult. He tried to explain briefly about it but I was not in the mood to listen at all. I left anyway after 2 minutes. haha. The story is not ending yet.

Being very emotion does not help to correct the situation because I know I still have the whole night to walk through. I recalled my friend, Lynda telling me running helps. So, I went for a run with Huili. She was upset about her exam as well. So, two moody lady went to run around the lake.

The story continues... When I came back and checked email, it came to my surprise that the tutor actually sent me an email to apologize and explained what he thought might be what I wanted to ask. I felt terrible about that because he was not the one that should be blamed on my tantrum. I think I am the one that should be apologizing and I shall not blame anyone in this kind of situation because I did not check what was going on although I really hate those Indians students and the Chinese girl.

What a Friday without work being done!! Thank you Huili for running with me!! =)

HAppy day!!

Hurray.... I am left with only one team research assignment and one in class tutorial quiz. So damm happy for the day. =) I guess this happiness can only stay for a day and I shall start my team research assignment soon or else I will get very very very stress because it is for CORPORATE STRATEGY. Omg omg... the name of the course has already freaked me out. HAHAHAHA...

I really can't hide my excitement and happiness now. Can you imagine after weeks loaded with all the assignments and exams... and now finally they all became history. How relieved it can be that you don't have to jump down from the bed, realising that it is still 7am, eat junk food everyday, realising more white hair sticking out... lol. I am saying bye bye to all those for the day.

Yup yup, I am going to work later. Work will be fun if I don't have to take care of disabled kids, which means I am not a support worker. LOL. Oh wells, today I am in a good mood, so it doesn't matter. =)

Interesting things of the week:
1. One day, I went out of my room without my glasses on and I met my neighbour. As those who knows me, without glasses, I am partial blind, ermmm... more accurate proportion would be 75% blind. So, my neighbour thought I forgot that I met him before. He said "I AM YOUR NEIGHBOUR!! HAVE YOU FORGOTTEN ABOUT IT??"

By that time he spoke to me, I did not respond to him because I was just woke up. Haha. After 30 seconds, I replied, telling him "SORRY, I FORGOT MY GLASSES".

Next time when I saw him, he will look at me, actually to examine whether I had my glasses on. So funny when I see his reaction every time I see him again. Cute neighbour.

2. I think I shouldn't write this but I will just briefly share something interesting with my tutoring. So, we had tutorial quiz this week. The question was about OTC, which mean over the counter. However, I have quite a few students, answering the question by mentioning risk of a countries. I failed to teach them properly. =(

OTC = over the counter not over the COUNTRIES. I thought I would never be that creative like them. HAHAHAHA...

More interesting things to be shares if I have time to update. =)

What is done is been done

请不要在鸡蛋里挑骨头！！

你到底要我改几次？？Don't be double standard!!

不管怎样，我应该不会再改了！！What is done is been done!! I don't care anymore!!

Anybody out there???

Anyone out there that is free to chat with me now?? I am sick of sitting in front of the computer from morning to night. Group assignment sucks... life even sucks when you have a dodgy computer. My dear lappie crashed when I was half done with my assignment and it is just a disaster when you DID NOT save the things you have done. Aiyooo... what to do... REDO lor...

Finally I finished my assignment for one of the course after spending hours calculating, typing and editing. Seriously, got people say they will edit, what happens is that they send me their original version. What does it mean? I guess I have to ham pa lang pao kao liaw. =)

Well, at least it is done now. HAHA... I seriously think I have changed so much, less complaints and more optimistic (I do still complain... that's my nature...). Is that the real me? Or my nature is being suppressed because of the life I am having now?

老虎，老鼠，傻傻分不清楚！！

Note: Dear laptop, please be nice to me. Please don't die before I graduate!!

Have a good weekends, my dear friends.