PEOPLE

It is either tomorrow or the day after tomorrow that I am going to have a presentation on my job rotation experiences so far in the bank. I really do not know what to talk about for the topic because I do not think I have enough content to talk about for 5 minutes. I have yet learned a lot of things at work and it has been very depressing  although everyone kept telling me it is ok to not learn or do anything.

My group insisted of finding a word with an alphabet starting with our name. My name is Priscilla, so I have to find a word starting with 'P'. I was asking my friend what should be the word, and she told me perfect. I thought it was a good idea because I have to show optimism in me. But the truth is, I can't get over it myself. OMG, although I was told to put on my poker face at work, I will never want to say my experience there is perfect. It would be so fake to me but I'm sure someone out there are willing to use the word 'perfect'. So, I came out with the word PEOPLE.

In our daily life, we have to deal a lot with people, it is something that is unavoidable. For example, we have to deal with the cashier when we pay for our groceries, we have to order our food by telling the waitress what we would like to have for lunch, we have to work together in teams at work and so forth.  

Mouth is the most notorious weapon ever invented by God and no men on earth could ever invent anything else that can be as poisonous or hurtful as what words of mouth can do. I know it is impossible to stop people from talking behind your back because whatever you do, they will have something to comment about it. For example, today, I chose to listen to whatever they are discussing and absorb what is the right way to share ideas so I decided not talking much. Guess what, people commented on me again. They said they have never expected me to be so quiet. Others commented that since I am so quiet, I should be the one that should be doing the presentation. Actually, I was giving out my ideas too in the first place, but nobody was listening. They were very focused on the pretty Y lady. Hence, I might just shut up and listen to Y lady. Y lady is well known for her detailed work so everyone just want to hear from her. Also, I have bad reputation in the bank therefore nobody wants to even be close to me. Fair enough, by talking to me, they are having reputational risk.
I just do not understand why people like to comment and criticize on others when our focus is to get the discussion done. Seriously, why? WHY? WHY? WHY?

God gave us a pair of ears and ONLY one mouth, so why not listen what others have to say rather than always talking? I am not against people who talk, you can talk all your heart out but please only talk about yourself. You have no rights to talk about others because you have not gone through what they have and you basically do not know the whole picture of whatever you are telling. Then, it is time for story twisting and selective telling.

Rumors and gossips can completely destroy a person in the eyes of others. I can't believe a simple sentence like 'I have no faith in the HR' will be spread out to all 29 management trainees and also escalated to the senior management. Everyone was talking about it behind my back and I did not know until now. Hurray, thanks everyone who talked about me because each of you guys spent at least your precious one minute talking about me rather than doing something important!! I still have no faith in the HR. They are good in selective hearing; they only want to hear from their 'pet dogs' and others, they will treat you like stray dogs. Although both are dogs, you get different treatments and penalties.

For example, you can be late for every training and not get whacked in the face but you can get insulted in front of 29 other management trainees because you express your opinions. This is where the unfair games come in. I admit I am not beautiful because I do not have 23 inch waist or big round eyes like a Barbie, but I do not think I deserve to be treated this way. I understand human are sight-oriented animals but humans have to be rational.

TO BE CONTINUE

*I believe if I present based on what I have blogged, I will get more bullet holes at my back. I don't think my back is big enough for extra bullet. So, I will present the way they want it to be - full of lies and pretend I am happy with what they have arranged for us. Poker face mode on!!

Dogs is everyone's best friend!!

I miss my dog!! Maybe I should adopt a dog so unhappiness will stay away from me!! 

Disclaimer: Found those photos on facebook.

Shadow Act

Found this on youtube. It is such an amazing performance. I praise and respect them for their talent. Such a creative performance!!

 

 

Let's call it a week!! =)

Don't know why I am so exhausted this week. My back ached carrying the heavy laptop bag and handbag. Is this a signal that I might fall sick over the weekend? Or maybe because I have really learned something this week after one and a half month of zero input. I feel contended. This week, at least I have something to write on my learning journal and it feels wonderful to review what I have learned. On the other hand, I must have caused a lot of trouble to my person in charge. I kept asking questions because I was so confused during the starting of the week. I never really understand foreign exchange rates in university and even now I would not guarantee that I understand everything because I still calculate the dates wrongly =(

Doing research and forecasting the future trend of 7 exchange rates will be my jobs for the weekends. Can anyone please help me do my assignments? I have no idea how those currencies move and what is happening in those countries in depth until I can be confident to forecast their future movements. Tedious jobs but I think I will enjoy it!!

 G7 currencies:

DXY (U.S. Dollar Index)

EUR/USD

USD/JPY

GBP/USD

USD/CHF

AUD/USD

USD/CAD

NZD/USD

Will be my weekend companion. Maybe I should start doing it tomorrow because my mind is completely blank now. I can't even concentrate on what the security guard was trying to tell me just now when I was about to enter the apartment. I told him to slow down because I could not catch a word out from his mouth. OMG... I must be really tired today, mentally exhausted.

I did not have quality sleep for the week. Often I will wake up in the middle of the night and my heart beats so fast that I don't understand why it is happening. Is there something wrong with me? Am I too fat that I am going to have heart attack soon? Oh nooo... Maybe it is time for me to go on diet. But... I love food!! I like to eat!! I am a round round tubby.

 

It's Friday again!!

I saw this on facebook under Golden words of Paradise,

If people say something bad about you, judge you as if they know you,
Don't feel bad, Just remember
"DOGS BARK EVEN IF THEY DON'T KNOW THE PERSON!!"

Lol. Since I can never stop my dog to bark, I can't stop people from commenting about me.
Woof Woof... Dogs are angels!!

Shakespear said:
I always feel happy because I don't expect anything from anyone. Expectations always hurt!!

Yes, no more expectations to my company and colleagues!! Yay, I only have high expectations to myself!!

Emo Friday night!! Sigh!! Good night peeps!!

給白羊座的1封信

To my dearest Batman's wife:

給白羊座的1封信

白羊的人生可以用兩個字概括：糾結。
不管從哪一方面來說，白羊本身就是一個矛盾的個體。
與白羊相戀須知：１.很慢熱，我很冷漠　 ２.很直接，討厭轉彎 ３.不喜歡說話，也不喜歡你太吵　４.喜歡自由的感覺，討厭囉嗦 ５.心智很成熟，看事很透徹　６. 很絕　７.需要行動證明愛我。

羊羊人看上去不拘小節，其實感情上道德上有絕對潔癖。
觸動原則的任何錯誤，哪怕再小都沒有辦法彌補。
決絕的轉身不回頭，不難過，不留遺憾，不內疚。
因為內心已經想的很明白，問心無愧，犀利得一塌糊塗。

你的一點關心，心思細膩的白羊會記得你對他的好。把自己的愛毫無保留的送給你，白羊是不被了解的可他們不會怨誰。
他們會傻傻的認為讓我承擔吧，別讓別人也受到傷害。
所以別讓他們最有魅力的笑容，成為掩飾痛苦的偽裝認真愛白羊，你會知道白羊的愛是充滿淚水的。

羊羊內心都很善良，很柔軟。羊羊內在的感性絕對不會亞於雙魚。羊羊真的是毫無心機地活在這個世界上。他善良得如此無私，往往讓人覺得不真實。
他很怕被人誤解，尤其是被自己在乎的人誤解。
羊羊其實本身真的很正直，確實耍不來心機。即使不被理解被誤解也依舊試著解釋。

白羊的反擊力很強，吵架的時侯羊羊可能會說一些很讓人傷心的話相信我羊羊真的不是故意的，那是他的直覺反應。
吵架就是要吵贏！
羊羊很可能一說出口就後悔了。可是很難拉下臉來衷心的道歉。
不要跟白羊生氣，放他一馬。我保證他會很感激對你加倍的好。

羊很懶，不想活得那麼累。能簡單，盡量簡單。
不愛解釋，始終認為懂自己的不用解釋。不懂自己的不必解釋。
不想管那麼多不相干的事，他們只挑自己愛做的事。
要嘛不做，要做就做到最好。其實羊羊也是完美主義者。

白羊座對好朋友可以很熱情，亂七八糟聊個不停。
對比較普通的朋友很冷淡，聊不上幾句就沉默。
羊羊很珍惜對他的好朋友，感覺是壞的叧有意疏離。
羊羊的普通朋友很多，好朋友沒幾個。
羊羊很孤獨常常自己一個人，一個人吃飯，一個人上學，一個人逛街，一個人發呆。

白羊真的沒辦法一心二用。聊手機時會把電影暫停，工作時不知道聽的是哪首歌，思考時不知道你在說的什麼。
因為羊羊的注意力只能集中在其中之一，白羊們更不會去花心。
因為羊羊喜歡簡單。腳踩兩條船，對羊羊而言是非常麻煩及複雜的事情，羊羊懶得去做因為羊羊真的很懶。


Disclaimer: Found on facebook and I do not own it.

給巨蟹座的1封信

給巨蟹座的1封信

逃避是他們的習慣。
他們對自己渴望的東西，總是先退到一邊，似乎毫不關心，然後突然撲上去。他們沒有很強的適應能力，卻有天生的領悟力。
他們以自我為中心，懂得自我保護。
... 他們最害怕孤獨，但又注定了孤獨。
有很多秘密，把真實的自己藏於夜半的寂靜和午間笑聲的明朗中。
巨蟹經常會說“我覺得”“我想”，他喜歡用敏銳的第六感來表達想法和感情。
不喜歡複雜的環境，他喜歡呆在安靜的地方做他喜歡的事。
喜歡跟志同道合的人組成一個小圈子自娛自樂。
巨蟹座善良體貼，不計較，會細心的記住好朋友的生日。
或許多愁善感，但仍然會在最難過時給你微笑.

巨蟹是十二星座中最為戀家的星座。
他們是現代的模範伴侶，他們無論走到哪裡都不會忘記家裡有人在等著自己。遇到巨蟹座的戀人是最大的幸福。
巨蟹是一個很感性的星座，一旦陷入愛情就會想要時時刻刻跟對方黏在一起。所以對癡情的巨蟹來說，每次結束一段感情都是最痛苦的經歷。

巨蟹天生悲觀，脾氣古怪，會突然爬進保護性的殼裡。
在受傷後他很少反擊，只會放棄。逃避是他的習慣。
他很念舊，喜歡舊東西。
他最注重的就是安全感，希望被保護卻常常是一個人。
他希望有屬於自己的空間，喜歡獨處。

巨蟹不喜歡受別人限制。他不喜歡任何東西過於圓滿，對他來說有缺陷的人生才是完美的，缺陷是靈魂的出口。
他的快樂都是微小的事，比如看見一隻小貓或小狗，收拾乾淨自己的家，看著在花瓶裡有水珠的香水百合。
很多巨蟹喜歡顧影自憐喜歡自己舔傷口，他心裡想什麼從來不說別人也猜不到。

巨蟹座的人有包容心，一般不會為了一點芝麻小事而耿耿於懷。
具有容人的雅量，很少拒人於千里之外。
再加上其有禮貌，善交際，富幽默感之迷人個性及對人道主義的尊崇會有許多朋友。
事實上巨蟹座的人經常會在強悍的外表下，隱藏著一顆柔弱的內心他就像這星座的表徵－－螃蟹。

巨蟹總說著無所謂的話，喜歡瞎想。尤其是讓人流淚的情節。
巨蟹夏天露出皮膚時，厭惡被陌生人觸碰。在公車上最為顯著。
巨蟹討厭裝的人，但有時候自己也不得不裝，還裝得挺真的。
巨蟹笑起來完全不顧形象，任憑周圍怪異的眼光也不會收斂。
巨蟹的心思很簡單不喜歡勾心鬥角

Disclaimer: Found it on facebook

Spelling makes wording wonder

Thank you note turns out to be thank you not!!

I wrote a thank you note and when the receiver reply my email, the subject became thank you not.

HAHAHA. Ok, I actually did not write it sincerely but I have to send it for being a nice employee. Maybe the receiver can feel the insincerity. Bleh... =P

*I have to wait for 1 month to get my necklace fixed. >.<