I am 'addicted' to facebook, although there is nothing attractive on facebook except for friend's status update or sharing of pictures. The problem is that not all the friends I added on facebook, I know them well enough, maybe just saw them once or the number of times talking to them are countable by all of my fingers. =)
Well, since I don't feel like studying, I might just scribble something here. What I am going to scribble below, you may not agree with it, but that is what I think. You can't control my thoughts because everyone has different life experiences.
I really hate group assignments, but according to ANU's lecturers, as you work in a corporate world, you need to work as a group. So, ANU trained students to work along with other people by setting course's assessments to be group projects. I don't disagree with what the lecturers thought of, but I personally prefer not to take courses with group assignments. For 10 group assignments, I have 9 bad experiences. =(
Don't ever dream you will have this kind of experience everytime with group assignments. It is for illustration purposes ONLY!! Ok, I shouldn't be that pessimistic since I have one out of ten good experience on group assignment. But, having good group members seriously makes things so much easier and less suffering for the semester.
When I thought I am going to do fine in this year without people that I can trust and work along with, I realized that all 4 courses that I am going to take, will all require group assignments. Goodness gracious!!
Some people told me, by doing group assignments, we get to know more people. Honestly, I am very tired of meeting new people and trying to make new friends.
What are friends for? What is friendship?
I googled the word "friendship" and got this
That's was what I thought about friendship too!! But after I reached Canberra, I realized, it is really hard to find a friend. I'm not sure about others, but often, it is not that I want to exclude myself from the crowd, I just can't help it.
I know as a true friend, you should not be meticulous for the time and thoughts spent on another person. But, as a normal human being, i think sometimes, after a few failure attempts to make new friends, you will just get fed up and feel it is not worthwhile to give out all of you and get nothing back in return.
After chatting with a few friends, I knew they have the same thoughts too.
Perhaps, this is part of our journey in life where I REdefine friend as
"A friend comes to you for things they need and walk away when they have fulfill the motive to get closer to you.
You should never test on how deep and lasting your friendship is because friendship is as fragile as potato chips. You need to handle it with care
No matter how close a friend is, a friend will leave you one day eventually, so never establish dependency on a friend or else you will be will lying in a pool of blood, not even knowing how you ended up there."
Priscilla (24-02-2012)
Don't worry everyone, I still have friends that care for me, and I care for them.
I am going to continue my undergraduate journey alone and for those who wants to join me and willing to become part of my memory, you are most welcomed, but I will not make friendship a big fuss as part of my life. It is just heartbreaking and tiring to work hard on something that I know and have experience that it is not going to be fruitful. I am stronger now and I will move on no matter what!! =)
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